This Life Hasn't Quite Turned Out The Way I Wanted It To Be

Hey there,
Today was going really well, i went to the gym and ate only a yogurt and had cups of tea. Then something just triggered inside me and i wanted to cry so i turned to the food for an answer. Yup, how stupid i was. I wouldn't really call it a binge because i didn't really eat that much but what i did eat, was very unhealthy.
I am thinking of doing the 2,4,6,8 diet. I did it just before Christmas and it worked really well, i lost 10 pounds but only to put it back on again because i could't keep my greedy gob shut. Back to work tomorrow, so hopefully i can just focus on work and not have anything to eat until i come home.
Wish me luck because i am going to really need it.
Thanks for reading.
P.S. Tomorrow i am going to weigh myself :(. So i will post and update you x

You Can Take The Future, Even If You Fail!

Hey there, so i have been kind of ignoring my blog.
Everything seems to be just taking a turn for the worst. I have been trying so hard to not eat as much but all i seem to do is end up binging. It's disgusting.
I tried again today but i still ended up binging. But i will NOT give up. Tomorrow is a new day, new week and i will be going to the gym and eating next to nothing. Hopefully i can get my motivation back and get back on the wagon.
I dyed my hair red and i love it, i feel like a new me. And it's not just red, it is bright red, the brighter the better :).
I have decided to keep going with my blog and try posting as often as i can. I need motivation and help and hopefully this blog can help me.
Well, i am off to bed soon, i want today to be gone, so i can start fresh tomorrow :)
Night night
Lots of love xxxxxxxxx

With Every Breath I Make

Hey,
I have done terrible so far this week. I have binged everyday. Disgisting.
However, i am in a better mood today because i haven't eaten a single thing. And hopefully i won't until Sunday. I went to the gym Monday and did a really hardcore run. Well, it was for me :). I was going to go to the gym on Tuesday after work but i lost my gym clothes on the way to work. Yup, the absolute idiot i am.
Anyways i ordered some new clothes and trainers and they came today which was really good. I am not going to go to the gym until Sunday though because Fridays and Saturdays are always busy at work and i never get home til late. I am trying to figure out the trigger for my binges, i have a few ideas but i am not sure if they really are. I want to get to the bottom of them because then when something happens or whatever, i can be prepared if you see what i mean.
Any how, i will post soon and update you.
Thankyou for taking the time to read.
Lots of love x x x

P.S. Seeing as i am in a good mood today, i am going to post some thinspo :)

Am I A Stupid Girl For Even Dreaming That I Could?

Hey there, so i am not very good at introductions, i never make a good impression on people.
I think it maybe because i am very shy.
Well, i will give you a brief explanation as to what i look like.
I have long curly brown hair, brown-green eyes, i have freckles, i am short. And most of all i am fat.
I hate being fat. I wish i could wake up one day and it would all be gone. But sadly that won't happen.
I used to be slim but i developed an eating disorder and lost too much weight. Then i put it all back on plus more which is disgusting.
That's why i am here today, because i want to lose weight more than ever and i am really determined to do this. So i thought tracking it would be a good idea. I will post my stats sometime this week, i have been trying to avoid the scales and tape measurer. I hope to find some friends along the way too.
Have a good night. x x x x